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30 august. Chronicle of a Death Foretold

Hello again my dusty forgotten cave. It's been a difficult last days for me, I've been wanting to write for a while now but my brain was not ready to think, about anything at all. Also I'm writing this while lying down since I am in quite a bit of pain right now, so excuse if the formatting is weird or the text is confusing, I'll fix it once I can sit on my computer again :^

Anyways, since I already mentioned my pain let's start with that, I am someone with a weak body in general, but this past month the pain on my neck and back has been killing me, it leaves me completely tired and unable to do anything, I can only read and play games from my bed with a controller, I don't have the strength to do anything else. My mom wants to take me to the doctor but I feel like they won't find anything of relevance, they'll send me back home with a painkiller and that's it. Also they (my parents) are still obsessing over the fact that I'm weak because of lack of food when I literally overeat most of the time, my body is just built wrong I guess. So yeah I'm taking a painkiller now with the side effect of insomnia so!! Life is great!!

This year I finally felt like I was living my life and doing everything that I loved, but right now I feel so so dull, I am so anxious, all day looking at the sun go down, alone, in pain, with no one to talk to, it's weird the amount of feelings i have inside me. I know I am a sensitive person, I probably overthink more than I should, but I believe in love more than I believe in anything, and right now that's what's keeping me afloat.

If you didn't notice by now, I also redesigned the site like a month ago or so, I'm very happy with how it looks, I don't know how many people are actually reading and interacting with this page, but mostly I do it for myself, as a hobby and a way to express myself.

I've been really enjoying the warm weather, at least is not so depressing and cold.

Also I started playing a digimon game since it reminds me of someone I adore, and it's actually so fun I'm going to learn all their names I swear, right now I love gabumon so much, and the big green rabbit with the gun arm, its the evolution of terriermon, he's so cool, he backflips, I cannot remember his name at all omg

I'm feeling so talkative today, maybe because I don't talk with anyone outside work and my only classmate I talk with has been absent so, I have so much I want to say and talk about, I might start talking with the walls.

I painted something new btw! It's on my art section as always, I really like painting teeth I noticed.

Well, I think I'm going to end this here, as always I invite everyone who read all this to comment on my chat or my guest book, or to send me an email of you want! Always willing to chat. Thank you