𝕭𝖑𝖔𝖌 𝖕𝖔𝖘𝖙𝖘!

3 june. A monster in a human body

Here I am, once again, screaming into the cave. Sorry that I kind of dissapeared for some weeks, I wasn't feeling like talking about myself to be honest. Lately I have been very happy (believe it or not) thanks to some things (people) that have been happening (nice things), I have also been feeling very good about myself and my looks, my body, and all that. As you know, I struggle a lot with liking myself, and I am not very kind to my own body, but these past months I got a lot better with it, taking care of myself is part of my routine now, I skip a lot of days but at least I am doing something.

Anxiety has been a bitch, I am not going to lie, almost every day I get a wave of anxiety that leaves me numb, the triggers are so random too, I used to know how to avoid it, but now is words, movements, sounds, I feel like a scaredly cat, like a deer who is constantly blinded by headlights.

Also, my family is making me want to kill myself (/hj), its destroying me just living in the same space as them, its just too much for me, I don't think I can keep living with them much longer, I do love them, and tolerate others, but I'm in a moment of my life where my anxiety is not compatible with them, they care about me but not in a way that I need or that is healthy. Every night I feel like I was in war, stepping over mines and fighting enemy fire. Also my best friend is not talking to me so there's that.

I am happy I promise

But hey! its already pride month around the world (not in my country but) happy pride month to everyone, as someone who is queer in every aspect, remember that loving yourself is very very important. Celebrate that.

Please check my new tab!! about my interests I added a very long list of many things I like, and I will be adding separate pages for the topics I chose on the left, hope I can finish that soon!